Excerpts

I. o. u.

The man I use to be is gone. He gave up his life so I could go on. I was looking for heaven and I found it. Replayed it, remade it, reshaped it, fell in love with it. I want to thank you for letting me go. I made a better man of myself since I left and went to heaven instead of being in hell with you.

2:00am

I hate myself. I despise the world. Everything’s exactly at my finger tips. And I still can’t get it right. I can’t find a job, can’t seem to grasp life. Said a prayer cause God only knows what I’m going to do right. I feel like my life is going to end soon. I’m glad I’m just dreaming and that’s one dream I’m not waiting on to happen.

Let me help you understand Part 2

On the hatred side of things. Now no one wants to help you get a understanding. They always seem to have their own input on how they feel. Goodness help me Lord. Then he spoke to me, and all I heard was the sound of his voice. Saying to me. Let me help you become a man.

Hope

How do you live when there’s no hope for tomorrow? Can I count on you to lead me, and guide me? How can I call on you when you don’t have a phone to answer? How can I trust you when I never seen what you look like? How do I know your real, and not just a made up being that someone wrote about, so that they can write the greatest book of all time? Why do I ask the question why? Because I don’t have hope.